WHO am I?
This is Sam, though most know me as Sam Bee from Bumblebee Acres Farm! And this is my story.
The day I learned about Diabetes, I was around 7 years old and saw my grandmother injecting insulin in our shared kitchen. I was horrified and began asking her a slew of questions. Why? How? I couldn’t understand it and she told me what most Type 2’s will tell you: take care of yourself and you won’t get this. Usually, that works pretty well. I swore to myself, that day, I’d never let it happen to me.
In May 2003 I was 10 years old and diagnosed with the very permanent condition of Type 1 Diabetes. The worst part was the thirst. A thirst so painful you feel as though your very cells are shriveling like raisins. I remember begging my 4th grade teacher to allow me to go to the water fountain, and being denied. I remember fibbing about hiccups until she let me go. I remember drinking 16 oz glasses of water in one long sip. And I remember when my grandmother, on a whim, tested my sugar and it was so high her glucometer could not even give her a number. Her calling the company, testing her own sugar, me being tested again after school the next day and being rushed to the ER. I remember my first hypoglycemic attack in the hospital, the helpless shaking and weakness in my muscles, the foggy thoughts, the racing heartbeat like I was running a marathon. Lows still feel like that, unless you get them too often. They feel like you’re dying, and if you don’t feel it, you might actually die. If you become desensitized to the symptoms, you black out. That happened twice when I was 16.
When I went to college I had to withdraw from a class freshman year because my blood sugars were so erratic I could not handle a full course load. Freshman year I was also dropped from our insurance until Obamacare was put in place.
My college was generous, and in my senior year helped me purchase a Continual Glucose Monitor (CGM) that would automatically read my sugar levels every 5 minutes with 98% accuracy. My current insurance no longer will cover the price of those supplies. Either way, I could not control my sugars and watched helplessly as the graph soared and plummeted with my almost inexplicable sugar readings. I couldn’t feel my feet and my fingers felt of constant pins and needles. I couldn’t walk. I couldn’t type. And my eyesight was changing constantly. Everything was blurry always.
WHY am I asking for YOUR help?
That brings me to now, and why I am here, laying myself open to the kindness of others, humbling myself and asking for help. Three years ago I was locked into a 4 year contract with an outdated insulin pump. Do not get me wrong, life would be impossible without my pump, but the company has since released a new one that is light years in advancements. It has the technology of reading my glucose with their CGM system, monitoring it automatically, and learning the trends of my body- things that people assumed my pump could do a decade ago. It then has the technology to automatically dose insulin and suspend insulin, depending on complicated predictions and algorithms of where my glucose is at and where it is trending: something no human can do. I have been waiting over a decade for this technology, but I am unable to access it for another year.
I was prepared to wait the year out, until my health recently took a turn for the worse. My sugars are unexplainably rising and falling again, and I no longer have a CGM to even keep me marginally on better track. Every day I cannot sleep because my sugar is too high or too low, my nerves are facing permanent damage in my hands, feet, and eyes. This is also a problem because my livelihood relies on the use of my hands and eyes.
WHAT I need!
The money you donate will help me buy this new insulin pump- the Medtronic MiniMed 670g- and will literally change my life. I will be able to sleep, workout without lows, get healthier, and hopefully no longer live in a state of constant fear, stress, pain, dehydration, and hopelessness. I know I sound pathetic, but I truly need this insulin pump. It’s my only hope at this point. I do not know what damage could be caused within the year, I also do not know if I will even survive the year.
WHERE these funds will go:
So, please, consider donating. If everyone donated just a few dollars it would bring me closer to a better life. The Medtronic company quoted me at $5,500 to upgrade to the new pump, and purchase the CGM and 6 months of supplies (none of which are covered by my insurance). The CGM supplies are $305 a month. If I am so lucky to reach my goal, additional funds will be put towards the remaining 6 months worth of CGM supplies (another $1,800), and my other health care needs, like eye care, migraine health, doctor visits, procedures to help with any current/future complications as a result of my diabetes and stress, and also emergency funds for when my medicine runs out before my insurance will refill it (which happens roughly every other month).
If this was too long for you to read:
1) Sam is a Type 1 Diabetic
2) Sam has bad insurance
3) Sam’s current insulin pump is very very outdated
4) Sam needs $5,500 to buy new insulin pump, CGM, and a better life
5) PLEASE Donate so Sam can finally feel much better!
Thank you immensely for your time in reading this, and if you do consider donating- Thank you!
If you do not want to donate through this site and would like some incentive, all proceeds from my “Joyful & Cozy” Patterns will also go towards my Insulin Pump Fund. If you are a knitter, the pattern can be purchased here!