We’ve been trying to move back to Smyrna, TN for almost two years now. The house we’re living in is a complete dump. When we moved in we had no idea just how bad it was. The water has sprung major leaks about eight times, one causing major flooding & leading us to worry about possible health concerns.
The floor in the kitchen feels like it’s going to cave in any day now & I found a hole in the floor next to one of the doors the other day. The deck feels like a death trap to walk on. The wood is warped & cracked & has many weak spots & some boards coming up from the nails.
The garbage disposal died over a year ago, was never fixed. Six weeks ago the dishwasher went out for the third time (the plumber keeps saying it needs replaced) & it’s still not been fixed.
There are holes in the walls, one goes all the way outside (I sealed it with tape!), two bedroom doors (which are practically cardboard) have fallen apart, one’s completely done for & the windows don’t seal to block out the cold.
Between gas (the nearest town is a half hour drive) & utilities (four times what they are in Smyrna!) this place is expensive.
A lot of this sucks, but two adults & one teenager can deal. But my daughter moved back in & now has a daughter of her own & this is no place for a baby.
By rights, we should be able to manage this on our own. Trust me, I know. We’ve tried.
For the longest time, everywhere we applied for either got otherwise rented (the market is extremely competitive) or the landlord wouldn’t allow our German Shepherd.
Back in March, we found a place. The landlord wanted to rent specifically to us. It was perfect!
Our car had broken down the day before & was in the shop. We were hoping it would be a cheap fix. Turned out the engine needed replaced & two days later I lost my job because the company I worked for went over budget.
So every penny we had saved went into another car so I could work (anything that pays more than minimum wage here is an hour’s drive at least).
I started a new job in June & we started saving again (Jen has worked from home for eight years now). Since then, we’ve had to replace the brakes in the car, back to school supplies were way more than usual, our bills have gone up & old student loans have resurfaced.
Then about two weeks ago, we were faced with a very difficult private family emergency with the baby and I had to go on unpaid personal leave.
We’re to our breaking point. We need to get out of this place as soon as possible & we don’t seem to be able to make that happen before winter.
For years now, we’ve lived in poverty yet we’ve managed to build a small press & published award-winning novels & novellas & anthologies contributing thousands to charity. And we’ve been planning to do so much more; to re-launch Nightscape Press with a brand new charity-driven model that will pay authors & the charities of their choice the majority of royalties.
And we don’t make any money from Nightscape Press. Every penny & then some goes back into Nightscape Press.
There’s a reason we’ve barely produced any books in the past two years.
But that doesn’t mean we’re ready to give up just yet either.
As soon as we get moved, we’ll be doubling down to make our charity model a reality in 2017.
But we can’t do that while we’re stuck in this place, struggling to survive.
So, if you can help in any way, we would really appreciate it! Thank you for reading & thank you so much in advance for sharing, donating, or any other contribution to our cause that you can make!