Posted on June 11, 2017
Posted on June 11, 2017This is going to be my last post on the You Caring sight. I am going to discontinue the profile, but will keep doing updates directly on Facebook from now on. I have figured out that slow and steady is going to be my mantra, and that healing from this surgery as well as the next one will take up probably 2017. Some good news: I have rediscovered reading and am enjoying some fun summer books. Also working a few hours from home every week and my mind appears to be in pretty good shape. :) Last night during a 3:00 a.m. drink break to rehydrate myself, I was reading a list of scripture in a magazine I have. An entire list of HOPE. I was reminded how much more there is to my life that this sickness. This is just a hiccup in the middle of it all. I have a different viewpoint of life now, just trying to do in the moment what makes me feel better right then and there. I don't know how anyone can make it through difficulties without God's help. I am so happy I was not alone.
Posted on May 25, 2017
Posted on May 25, 2017My friend Jane just got a dream job in a small Maryland coastal town. I found myself feeling so happy for her, and a tiny bit jealous. I dream of a simple life with no pain - selling ice cream at the beach would be nice, or opening a pie shop in some small western town and growing roses. It's really all I want, simplicity, joy, less pain. I cannot wait to be able to reach out to others in some small way. To spread God's love, volunteer, smile more. I find I am overwhelmed with feelings when my friends with cancer get sick. Some of them die. Then I die a little inside, it makes me so sad. I am like an open weeping story....I am hoping these tears are cleansing out the gunk! Love you all.
Posted on May 22, 2017
Posted on May 22, 2017Sorry it has been so long since my last update. I've actually had relief from the nausea on my new meds schedule! Which means I've been increasing my activity. Getting up and around more. Some accomplishments: sat in a lawn chair and used my long-handled clippers to shape up the big tree out front, been watering the roses, herbs and tomato plant, making some dinners and breakfasts now, doing some dishes and laundry. Grocery shopping is still tough and I need a nap afterwards, even though I use the motorized cart. Met a friend for lunch - I can go about two hours now without needing a rest. Doing simple daily P.T. Trying to work some from at home for my job. In about six weeks I get rescanned and will meet with surgeon to discuss the reversal of the ostomy. I hate the idea of another surgery, but really need to get it done this year in case insurance goes kaput. Happy to say I am now reading some books just for fun, which I've not been able to do in a long time. Not quite normal, but my anxiety has decreased a lot with the nausea. Thanking God for this little improvement and keeping me and Cliff above water. I really thought we might be sinking there for a while. God's mercy is great. Hope you all have a great week.