Posted on January 11, 2018
It has been a long while since I posted an update for this fundraiser, and I have had many things happen since I originally posted it. After going homeless, I ended up with a stranger who agreed to help me out of the kindness of his heart, but actually this person was only seemingly doing it for the personal satisfaction of helping me. Soon after, he became mean and eventually even refused to talk to me after realizing the realistic cost of taking someone in and paying for the utilities they would cause. Even as I rationed showers and electricity or what I absolutely needed, he would turn the wifi off every day just to spite me. It was a nasty situation in which the next 5 months of my life followed until he decided my disability taking too long to come wasn't fast enough for him and kicked me back onto the street without much notice, something that was apparently legal because we didn't have a contract. Luckily, a friend of mine, unable to see me living this way anymore, took me in. He had to uproot his entire life, moving from his own home so that he could have another person on the lease.
Since, I am living in a non-abusive household for the first time, and am getting my health on track. My mother still stalks me online, but I no longer have contact with any of my family; I have changed numbers and everything I could so that I could not be found. All types of changes are happening with me now as I start to unpack and process everything I have been through. Memories are coming to the surface that I had long repressed. Still, life is better now than it ever has been, and this place will, all things going right anyway, hopefully shelter me for a few years as I try and pick up the pieces.
Your generous and incredible donations are what has gotten me through this year. Here in New England, it has been as much as -10 at night, and with many snowstorms already. With my physical illnesses and lack of resources, I probably would not have survived this winter. Your donations paid for the first and last deposit on my shared apartment my roommate could not afford, gave me personal care items I needed, paid for medications, and gas to be transported places I needed to go. I cannot thank you enough. A
When I started this fundraiser, I genuinely thought no one would care about me or my situation. When I was searching for shelters, I got refused women's shelters because while legally a woman, I look like a man, and I cannot go in men's shelters because of my sexual trauma and the fact I am legally still female. LGBT Specific ones mainly only took LGBT Youth, which I am just over the cut for. It felt like the world had no place for me, and would rather leave me to die. This could have impacted my mental health deeply if I had not had a big reminder that there were strangers I did not know ready to sacrifice so I could survive. Things are still hard. I am having to jump through many government hoops even now as we speak to get emergency funding. But things are looking up. Maybe not permanently, but for right now, and that alone I am grateful for.
You all may as well have saved my life.