In May I will set off on an 11 day vision quest ceremony with 4 days of fasting and solitude in nature. To do this I will need support from community. My intention is to seek a vision that will support both me and my community, as well as inspire others down the path of healthy rites of passage.
At 21 I realized I had never spent more than a day alone in my entire life. I decided to venture into the Olympic National Forest for 10 days of solitude. By day two I was talking to myself out loud. Society told me that was abnormal behavior and I knew not know what to make of it. After 3 days of hiking I decided to climb a peak to see if I could view Mount Olympus. As I climbed the slope got steeper and steeper until eventually I was face to face with a rock wall. I turned around and realized my descent was just as steep. On the side of that mountain I finally felt fear. The fear that if I tumbled down the mountain and broke my leg no one would no where I was. Or even worse, what If I died out there? I was three days hike from my van. I decided to give up my 10 day solo and return home.
At the time I considered leaving early a failure. But now, many years later and with an understanding of rites of passage, I look back at it as a phenomenal success. It required risk and bravery, and far exceeded anything I had done before. And most importantly, I realize now that no one was there to guide me, support me, witness me, or point me in the right direction. Without that support, I did the best I could have done.
I now know that what experienced was a vision quest. One I created from an internal knowing of what my soul needed. But, with out guidance I didn't know that a vision quest could be so much more. It could be a conscious shedding of the old and welcoming of the new held, supported, and witnessed by a village. And It could be guided by someone who had been down the path before me and knew what I would encounter.
Synchronicity recently introduced me to a man named Kedar Brown
. I knew upon meeting him that I wanted him to guide me on another vision quest. He was thoughtful, gentle, intentional, spiritual, and humble. He has guided many people down this path and been down it himself many times. And to top it off he leads his quests in the same valley and along the same river where I live in North Carolina. I can seek a vision in the very place where I would put that vision to action.
A vision quest is not just about serving my self, it is also about serving my community and humanity as a whole. I feel strongly that my life path is leading me toward supporting people through vision quests and other healthy forms of rites of passage. I seek to be a role model showing others that this path exists. My own quest will not only move me forward on this path but also ensure that I have done my work before helping others on theirs.
Since this vision quest is also for my community I feel called to reach out for a tangible show of support and to know that my community wants, needs, and values this vision.
There are several ways you can support me.
- First and most pressing is financially. This guided vision quest costs $2000 and I need help paying for it.
- Second, I ask that if you don’t know about vision quests and healthy rites of passage that you begin to familiarize yourself with them and how necessary they are for our healthy evolution as a species.
- Third, I invite you to pray, eat, and drink for me on May 27-30th while I am alone on the mountain.
I thank you so much for your support and witnessing of my journey,