Hi, we are Megan and Jeremy Johnson and this is our story.
It’s never easy to share your personal struggles. It’s even harder to ask for help, especially when that help is monetary. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and hopefully share our story.
As some of you may or may not know, Jeremy and I have been trying to have a baby for a little over 5 years now.
Our story began like most: boy meets girl, we fell in love, got married, bought a house, and spoil our fur-babies. So, on our one year anniversary when we decided to officially start trying to have a baby, it never occurred to us that it would be a long painful road ahead of us.
After a year of trying with no results we began to seek out a fertility specialist. From there we tried 3 local doctors, with one failed IUI we then found Colorado Center for Reproductive Medicine (CCRM), where we started our IVF journey. CCRM is one of the leading fertility centers in the US, and we had hopes to qualify for their IVF Refund program. We ultimately did not qualify, but after seeing how they do things there, there was no way we could go back to a local clinic. So we began our IVF journey with CCRM. We decided to do a frozen IVF cycle, which would allow us to freeze our embryos and transfer them as we needed them.
In 2015 we had our egg retrieval surgery, and they we able to collect 14 eggs, the next morning we were informed that 6 fertilized, and then we waited to see how many would grow to day 5 to be frozen. We were able to freeze 3 embryos. We were on cloud nine.
And on November 8th of 2015 our first transfer was a success, we were pregnant! We were elated! Then after a few weeks, we went to our first ultrasound appointment to hear the fetal heartbeat. We were, as most couples would be, incredibly excited and nervous. But then once we got there, the nurse seemed to be struggling... they were unable to locate the heartbeat. We miscarried on Dec. 11th 2015. No one can prepare you for the amount of pain
you feel, lying on the exam table searching the monitor and listening for a heartbeat that does not come. We were completely devastated. Devastated doesn't even begin to describe it, there are no amount of words to describe our loss.
Since then we have transferred our remaining two embryos (separately), both of which ended in miscarriage. More pain...Heartbreak after heartbreak.
We went back to our doctor to discuss our possible options, and to try to figure out why. The 'why' is the hardest part, because it goes unanswered. You see, the problem is not that I cannot carry a baby to term, the problem is that I have diminished ovarian reserve, and likely means that there was an abnormality with the embryos.
Our doctor explained to us that they have a program for patients in our similar situation, it is an Embryo Donation program. The program with CCRM, is that another couple who used CCRM for their fertility process and had all the children that they want, but have remaining embryos, they can donate them rather than have them destroyed. We do not meet the donors, but we get a medical, ethnic background so that we can choose a donor that is similar to ourselves, we also get info regarding the number of embryos and their qualities. We would receive 2 embryos from the chosen donor couple, and the rest would be held until our pregnancy was a success. The program costs $18,000, and that does not include medications or travel. This is an amazing program that would allow us to still experience pregnancy, bonding, breastfeeding, etc. We realize that this program is different from traditional adoption, but traditional adoption can cost anywhere from 30 to 50k. After doing a lot of research and soul searching, we truly feel that this is the right path for us.
We were added to the Embryo Donation program wait list shortly after our third miscarriage in July of this year, at that time there were 6 couples ahead of us. We were told it could take anywhere from 6 months to a year. And then... Miraculously we received a call last week to let us know that it is our ‘turn’ to pick from the small handful of donors that they currently have. We are currently in the selection process.
As you probably already know, insurance does not cover any fertility treatments, and IVF is incredibly expensive. Between all the doctor appointments, multiple tests, medications, egg retrieval, 3 frozen transfers, and travel we have spent somewhere in the ballpark of 75k.
And now we come to the part that I have dreaded: asking for your help. We have exhausted all of our financial means and sadly we fear that we may be unable to take an additional loan for the entire cost of the Embryo Donation program. We hope that with the kindness and generosity of our friends, our families, and even those we haven’t met yet who would be willing to become part of our story and help us finally become parents.
There are a couple of ways you can support us - the most direct and convenient way is by monetary donations thru this webpage. Honestly no donation is too big or small. All donations will be exclusively used to fund our embryo donation/adoption bill. We understand that not everyone has funds available to donate and we welcome support through your thoughts and prayers as we continue down this road. We would also encourage you to share our struggle and story with friends, family, coworkers, churches, on Facebook, Twitter, and anyone or any other way you can think of.
If you would like to contact us about this webpage or infertility, please do so via – [email protected]
We hope our story can also help someone else out there to know that they are not alone.
Thanks for taking the time to read, hopefully share our story, and most of all thank you so much for your support.
Megan and Jeremy Johnson