Posted on May 4, 2015
Thank you for your kindness and financial generosity. I truly am blessed.
April was a busy month, with much of my time spent with doctors, medical, dentistry, opticians, oncologist, medical social worker, counselling and more. It was an exhausting and stressful month, I must admit. I have been in a housing transition, I am still looking for housing. It is not easy to find an affordable place to live I have discovered, especially with a standard poodle. I can't give up. I need a place to live as soon as possible. It's stressful.
For the entire month, I was mostly exhausted and suffering from tremendous and disabling fatigue.
So, as people are curious, let's get to what happened at the BC Cancer Agency during my follow-up appointments, post-breast cancer treatments. I had a follow-up with my medical oncologist and medical social worker on April 30th.
My medical social worker was fabulous. She was proud of me, for all of my accomplishments, hard work on healing, while trying to change my entire life in the midst of so many barriers. She believes that I have a hard year ahead of me, a year at least. It wasn't what I wanted to hear, but I accepted it, and agree. I am in the midst of four major life changes all at once.
Miracles can still happen, and I remain open to it, but when you look at one recovering from cancer treatments, needing to move house and home, and geographical location, while making major life changes, filled with loss and grief, it's a long haul.
My medical oncologist appointment went as well as one could accept. She reminded me that April 30th, the day of our meeting, was the anniversary date of my surgery, my lumpectomy. I had not even put the two together, as I have been so stressed.
So what news did I get with this follow-up appointment?
Well, as last time I met with my medical oncologist, it was not the news I wanted to hear. I always want to hear, "you don't need to come back for another 12 months" or "I don't need to see you again for 6 months." I picture myself jumping for joy.
I must go back in 2 months, once again.
That is what I heard, "I need to see you again in 2 months."When I heard this, it was like all the air flowing out of a big balloon, suddenly, and quickly. My heart hurt a little and my gut felt queasy for a minute, wishing it wasn't what I were hearing. But it's the truth.
I am also being referred for BRCA1 & BRCA2 Genetic Testing, just to make sure. It hasn't been done yet. I am waiting for an appointment.
So onward I go.
More healing and more recovery time is needed. Exhaustion, cancer fatigue and stress need to go down, and energy levels and health must go up.
One thing I can say, is I do feel fortunate with the superb medical care that I have. They are being thorough. I am not slipping through the cracks. I am grateful. And I am grateful to you, for you. You all help me to keep on going. In addition to your donations, your kindness, prayers, love, support, well wishes and positive thoughts, are lifting me through this all. Thank you.