Facial Feminization Surgery
(FFS) is a set of reconstructive surgical procedures that refine typically "male" facial features to bring them closer in shape and size to typical "female" facial features.
"Undergoing FFS is not a matter of beauty. Sometimes I tell people about needing to do this, and they say 'but you’re beautiful as you are.' While the intention is kind, it misses the point entirely. These procedures are the bare minimum of what I see myself needing in order to live a sustainable life as a trans woman.
I believe that at the very least these procedures will disrupt the unconscious process of strangers looking at my face and seeing a man. I need this not only to feel safe physically in the world, but to feel safe and comfortable in myself. No trans people are obliged to change themselves physically through hormones or surgery. I have recognized my individual need for these surgeries, and as such see them as making my life more livable." -June Jones (@small.tits.big.heart)
I'm a 22 year old afro-latina trans femme artist based in NYC, just hustling for my dreams. When i'm not working, you'll find me kickin it with my girls, munchin on a chopped cheese, or overanalyzing my feelings (she's a cancer lol). Since my move to the city, a little over 2 years ago, i've been focused on creating space/representation for black & brown trans/gnc femmes within the fashion industry, nightlife, online and wherever I can really. I've built my platform from the ground up, managing/representing myself and navigating it all alone; while this route has been a huge blessing in many ways, it unfortunately has proven folks in my line of work are quick to take advantage. Being ignored when asking to be payed and rarely getting compensated fairly combined with the daunting task of finding/sustaining a job where my trans-ness isn't a detriment have made it extremely difficult to save & pay for surgery on my own.
THE PROBLEM :'(
I've felt uncomfortable with my face since first puberty began to steer my features in a more masculine direction, not yet knowing that my unease stemmed from my desire to present femininely. While Hormone Replacement Therapy has helped me a lot, it can't refine whats already developed to match "feminine standards," and it sure as hell can't erase the social construction of gender that stirs discomfort & confusion within those who don't understand us, which makes visibility for trans femmes such exhausting, anxiety-inducing, painful, and dangerous work. My dysphoria towards my face has become crippling, as it affects every aspect of existing-making me question existence altogether. It takes so much out of me to walk out of the door, let alone lead a career that depends on radiating confidence, but I know there are so many young folks out there who need to see someone like them thriving independently..so I walk out of the door anyway.
I want folks to see me with their eyes, not misgender me with them. I wanna leave the house without feeling overwhelmed by anxiety and fear that I won't make it back. I don't wanna counterfeit confidence; When I see my face, I want to see the strong, powerful, and proud trans woman that I am.
THE SOLUTION :D
Surgery in Marbella, Spain on October 5th with The Facial Team! After over a year of research, I chose this incredible team specializing in FFS & dedicated to providing the best quality of care, facilities, and results for trans women. The goal isn't to completely change my appearance, just refine what i'm already workin with.
Procedures i'm having done/considering:
- Forehead & Orbital reconstruction via coronal approach
- Super duper slight rhinoplasty
- Trachea shave
Expenses will cover all surgery, recovery, and travel expenses for myself and a friend who'll be helping me heal :)
I know it's a big number, but literally every penny counts. This is probably my biggest aspiration, as it'd mean I get to live my life to the fullest; by donating what you can, you're helping me more than you could ever know. I appreciate it so much