Let's Help Lauren Beat Breast Cancer

For: Lauren Carman Evans
San Francisco, CA
Organizer: Dixie Hall
of $50,000 goal.
Raised by 328 donors
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The Story

I am posting this for a family that I have known for 23 years; Sue and Bill Carman. Lauren Carman Evans, their daughter and her husband Daniel became parents to adorable twins; one boy, Charlie and a girl, Clementine on March 12, 2016. Lauren, a Type 1 diabetic since age ll, spent three months at UCSF prior to delivering the 33 week old babies via C-Section. They and the babies spent another six weeks in NICU before leaving for her parent's home in Alamo. Lauren is a teacher in Eureka, CA and Daniel, a student at Cal State Humboldt, was to be the full time caregiver. Last week Lauren was diagnosed with an aggressive breast cancer which will require months of chemotherapy followed by mastectomy. She was told that she will not be able to work for six to twelve months. I know that all of us who know them (and I hope friends of friends who don’t know them) will be inspired to help them in anyway we can. They could really use a hand right now.They are going to incur so many expenses, some they and we can guess  and many more that will be unwelcome surprises. If you can afford to make a contribution, I assure you it will be put to good use

Fundraiser Updates

Posted on January 7, 2018


Posted on January 7, 2018

Hello Everyone,

Life has been nonstop since we returned to Eureka and all went back to our lives full-time. Much of it is a blur and I am not the person I was before cancer. We are not the same family we were before cancer.

I have a wonderful classroom this year and Daniel is doing well at HSU. He got his first B of his college career (**gasp!**) last semester. I think it was a Calculus 2 class that did him in! I am so proud of him and he continues to be a wonderful and supportive father and husband. I assure him that yes, one day he'll get his fancy fishing kayak and some time to actually enjoy it on the water! Presently, Daniel spends his days studying or with the kids, and he does both happily.

The babies are coming up on their second birthday in March and it is unbelievable how fast the time goes. Their language and skills continue to grow at an exponential rate, and they are the most lovely little humans I could have ever imagined spending the rest of my life with. My heart overflows with joy when I think about how much I love them! Clementine is a tiny little person with a huge personality and a brilliance about her. She charms people everywhere she goes and is thoughtful about the way she approaches every interaction or new opportunity. She is a happy child and she makes us laugh often. Charlie is sweet, sensitive, brave, and wears his heart proudly on his size 2T sleeve! He is all about big movements and big emotions, and he loves to go on adventures and learn new things. He reads books, finds out how things work, and tests just how far he can push his toddler limits before falling asleep in our arms.

We had a nice holiday and visited family down in the Bay Area for about a week, then returned home to get caught up on some things and allow the babes to fully recover from the back-to-back cold viruses they've had since starting daycare in the fall semester. We left "Grammie" Sue and "Graa-pA" Bill with colds and a house that had been turned upside down! The kids enjoyed seeing their family and especially their cousins in Walnut Creek for a beautiful Christmas Day Brunch at their Uncle Ted and Aunt Megan's house.

The holidays felt much better this year than they did the last. I was still very sick this time a year ago but did not know of what I would still go through. We were treading water for so long that when we came home and got settled I suddenly had a great deal of processing to do. It has felt a lot like grief and I am still sorting through it all but I am feeling better physically and emotionally every day that passes. My family, friends, support groups and medical community help with this tremendously.

I have been back to UCSF a few times for check-ins with my doctors and surgeons and I am getting prepared for my next surgery in February. I'll have my tissue expanders swapped out for implants and will have my ovaries and tubes removed at that time as well. BRCA1 carries a high risk for breast cancer AND ovarian cancer; it is like a gift that keeps on giving (a really awful one that we never wanted), but we are going to try to get ahead of the ovarian cancer! Your support has made it easier to get through it all so far, and will continue to help me get well and stay well.

I hate cancer. In 2017 I lost two dear friends from cancer and several were diagnosed, including one of my favorite nurses at UCSF and a little boy who attends school where I used to teach. I can only hope that this time next year they will be looking back at the pure hell they are currently trudging through and starting their own process of picking up all the pieces and trying to figure out what the heck just happened. Both places are often uncomfortable to be in and carry their own set of fears and lessons you never wish you had to learn, but there is something especially miserable about the diagnosis and treatment part.

I'm sorry it has been a while since my last update. Things have been sort of crazy around here with twin toddlers, type 1 diabetes, a 14 year old Wonder Dog, full time teaching, and all the moments in between. Just in case you were wondering, Chili is doing great. She spends her days eating the toddler snacks that fall off the table and getting snuggled by kiddos!

I consider myself very fortunate and grateful.

I'll never complain about getting old. I hope you don't either.

Happy New Year


Lauren, Daniel, Charlie, Clementine and Chili the Dog

Posted on October 9, 2017

Posted on October 9, 2017

For most, any kind of Fill-in-the-Blank-Here-Awareness Month is a short parade of ribbons, in a pleasant color, in little corners of their life. Maybe a football team will wear pink shoes for a game or two, or a celebrity will make a statement about someone they lost from this or that condition. A restaurant chain will offer a percentage of their proceeds to benefit some well known organization that, at least from the appearance of the nice logo or the annual fundraisers they put on, seems to make some kind of difference.

This year it all started with the lid on a drive through coffee coffee cup (did I have to say that twice?) and this kicked off Breast Cancer Awareness Month in my life, at least the part of it with the pretty ribbon and the trendy hashtags.

Cancer really has nothing to do with these things.

This time last year I was in month two of high dose chemotherapy, with no hair, two infants, and a variety of anti-nausea drugs in little bottles and various doses. My oncologist had told me that it was "going to be a really, really shitty year." Looking back, that was a little bit of an understatement. My life and the lives of those I loved fell apart around me, and for more than a year we struggled to "be okay" enough to get through the next hour, week, chemo infusion, hospital stay, or surgery. Many days I did not have the strength to get out of bed to play with my new babies. My husband, and other people, cared for them. There was a period of about ten weeks during which I was not allowed to pick them up or hold them against my chest.

I remember the day my mother shaved my head, and when my eyelashes and eyebrows fell out. I remember when my skin turned gray and my nails began to get blood streaks in them, hurt, and then fall off.

Over those days and weeks and months I learned that breast cancer was not neat and tidy like a pink ribbon with a safety pin through it. I would never think of those ribbons, logos or trendy sayings about things like cancer in the same way again. They were nice ways of helping well meaning people feel better about something ugly; something that might take someone they love away from them in a messy, sad and tragic way.

I want to be perfectly clear; none of what I am describing should take away the importance of Awareness Months. We do need a way to make such a horrible thing tolerable enough and marketable enough to discuss, spread knowledge of, and (hopefully) do something significant about. These are uncomfortable topics, and as the friends and followers of my story know by now, I don't tend to sugar coat the horrible parts unless I am feeling especially vulnerable or otherwise worried that I will scare people off if I am too honest about my story.

The truth is, Breast Cancer Awareness doesn't just happen one month out of the year for me, or my loved ones, anymore. We have to be aware every day for the rest of our lives. I certainly hope that this means at least a few more decades of Awareness for me and that I am given the gift of living that long. I hope with all my heart that I have the privilege of watching my toddlers grow up to be kind, empowered, and strong adults. I hope I can be their Mother long enough for them to know me, remember me, and watch me get old.

Many young women with breast cancer, especially triple negative breast cancer, don't get that far. I struggle with the decision to stay active in many of my support networks because every time I see another announcement that a young Mother with small children has died, it hurts and terrifies me in ways that I cannot begin to describe to you here.

All I can do are the little things I've been told to do, like eat relatively healthily (without obsessing over it!), continue my teaching career (without becoming stressed or overworked!), take walks (even when I am tired and it is raining!), and keep moving forward through life with the assumption that I will probably be okay (but might not be). There are other things, but I won't bore you with the details.

Here's the thing; cancer will forever be a part of me. Whether it is the trauma leftover, the chronic pain, the remaining surgeries, changes, challenges, successes and failures; the long trips to visit the oncologists and doctors multiple times a year, or the hope I hold in my heart that someday there will be a cure or a solution, it is there.

Cancer finds me often. It finds me when I am holding my babies at night and I begin to wonder how many more days, months or years I have left with them, my husband, my family and my friends. Cancer finds me with every headache, bone pain, blood test and appointment to be made. It finds me on birthdays and anniversaries. There is a deep fear in every one of those things, and I will have to find a way to live with it.

Often people make the comparison of cancer to a war or a battle; something one wins or loses. It's not like that at all, and the ones who "lose their fight" don't ever lose for lack of trying. Most of the time it just isn't an even playing field and your biology has more to do with it than any amount of thoughts, prayers or fancy state of the art treatments or medical care. In America, having health insurance at diagnosis is likely one of the best things to tip the scales in your favor, for crying out loud!

And then there is still a lot of hope.

There is a good chance that with some luck, continued access to care, ongoing support and... meditation, mindfulness, therapy, stress reduction, short walks, healthy food, enough money to fund it all, and a whole lot of LOVE....

Some days I think I might just make it.

There is nothing more that I look forward to than telling a fifteen year old Clementine that no, she cannot wear those shorts outside of the house; or gripping the door handle and stomping on the non-existent brake on the floor of the passenger side of the car (like my own Mother did) when I get to teach Charlie how to drive a car one day. I want to be an old lady with old lady problems and complaints and aches and pains. I want my former students (that's YOU, VMS graduates!! You know our arrangement!) to come pick me up from the old lady home and take me to lunch, even if I am a little bit nutty. I can guarantee I will at least be a little bit nuttier than I am right now. I want to care for, spend time with, and love my parents as they get older.

Last year I was very sick during Breast Cancer Awareness Month. This year I am better but different and not feeling recovered yet, BUT I MADE IT A YEAR. The next time I see pink ribbons and coffee cup lids, it will be another year I will be here with my family. The year after that, with the pink football cleats and gloves will come the 3 year out mark, when my chances of recurrence start to go down. Those damn pink ribbons everywhere represent awareness of something that is often sad but also hopeful.

Oh, and before I forget, that pink ribbon should remind you to go get your boobies checked. Don't fucking wait on that, don't put that off. Also, while I'm at it, don't hesitate to throw that f-bomb in with the c-word, because there is no better combination. FUCK CANCER. See how nicely that rolls off the tongue?

This month, wear your ribbons, sign up for your walks and donate if you can to organizations or individuals that need your help.

I still need help. We still need help. I need those cards and texts and calls to keep coming. I need those words of encouragement and funny photos and inspiring stories to keep heading our way. If you are able, we can use help paying for childcare while I go to doctors appointments or therapy sessions to keep me healthy, or just to rest, or the gas to get to UCSF from Eureka.

I don't care who you help during Awareness Month, just help someone however you can. Share the love because LOVE is what makes life bearable and even joyful during the most miserable times.

You have brought so much joy to our lives. You have helped so much. Thank you.

Happy Breast Cancer Awareness Month; now here come the trendy hashtags: #BRCAware #checkyourboobies #minetriedtokillme #fuckcancer #sorrynotsorry #inmemoryofsomany #iwanttolive

Please SHARE our YouCaring page to bring awareness this month. You could save a life with our story.

Loving You,

Lauren, Daniel, Clementine, Charlie and Chili the Dog

Posted on October 4, 2017


Posted on October 4, 2017

I am still here. 

In so many ways we are doing well; I dropped back into teaching like the old "riding a bike" thing and Daniel loves the program he is in at HSU. The babies are thriving at day care and we are working out the kinks!

There have been so many transitions and we are not settled yet. Things are settling, but we're not quite there. It will take some time. There is a lot of trauma left over and processing that needs to be done after a series of unfortunate events. Relationships change, the support changes, family is far away. 

Life moves on but in many ways I am just now beginning to understand many things. I am back in a community that did not see how sick I was. For them it happened and now it is over. For me it's not quite that simple. 

I miss my family so much and can't wait to go home for the holidays. It will be so good for me and for the babies. They miss Grandma and Grandpa like crazy and video chats just aren't the same as the real thing.

I will also see my doctors at UCSF again and prepare for the next steps that will happen early next year. In the spring I will have the exchange surgery and will also have my ovaries and tubes removed as a preventative measure to hopefully beat any other cancer in those spots to the punchline. 

I am still tired and I hurt, but I am feeling a little bit better every week. I still have many moments where I fall apart, but I manage to pull it all back together for everyone the next day. 

I fail to find the words to express just how much the support of others has meant to me during this journey. The journey isn't over, but I am hopeful that maybe some of the hardest parts are behind us. 


It is Breast Cancer Awareness Month again. Last year I was in the middle of treatment and this year it means something different. I got a coffee cup today with a pink lid on it and I had a lot of new thoughts about it. 

I'll write more later. 

In the meantime, please share our story to raise awareness. YouCaring has also  requested that we keep the page up and they regularly contact us for updates. They are good people doing good work and we consider them friends. 

I am loving all of you, wherever you are, every day. Some of the days lately are very dark but I have two little lights with me. 

I wanted to share this poem I saw from a best friend's wife today (Thanks, Erica):

When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,

I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.

I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.

And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.

The Peace of Wild Things
Wendell Berry

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