The time has come my dear friends and family that after many years of battling illness I am starting a personal fundraiser page.
This has been a bittersweet journey because alongside the years of sickness, pain, isolation, trials and everything that comes with chronic illness, there have also been blessings along the way and continual deeper revelations of my God who walks with me every step of the way.It is with humbleness and humility that I am starting this much needed fund, a lifeline really that may end up being an answer to prayer. Where I am today is realizing how much I need help. I am still in treatment, seeing good doctors, getting IV's every other week along with all my other therapies. I go through what I call "good cycles" and "bad cycles" which can each last weeks or months. In the bad cycles I am barely surviving and there is little left of me. On the good cycles I feel a bit like my real self again and I am able to see friends and get a taste of normal. I work part time, and I feel intense guilt over this and want to get healthy enough to do more. A short list of things I deal with daily are fatigue, chronic edema, digestive issues, pain, cognitive issues and other symptoms.... These ebb and flow depending on many factors. But in the mean time I literally cannot pay my bills and debt has mounted up. This should not bring me the stress, fear and tears that it does, but they do get the better of me. I am leaning on my heavenly Father and learn to do better all the time. But neither do I want to be like the man in the illustrative story who is sitting on the roof of his house as the flood waters come, asking God for deliverance and turning down the neighbors in boats who are able to help Him.
It is with this prayerful spirit that I am seeking help as the floodwaters threaten to overwhelm me and I know I do not have the strength to swim.
Myself and my family have battled chronic illness for decades, and going into the full myriad of history would be overwhelming. Our family medical bills have run over 300,000. We have been dealing with mold biotoxic illness and Lyme, possible heavy metals and other things. My situation now is that I am approximately 3 1/2 years into comprehensive Chronic Lyme treatment. I am including in this not only treatment for the Lyme (Borellia) itself but all the co-infections, hormonal disruptions, toxins, biotoxic mold illness, POTS, MTHFR, increased intestinal permeability....and other challenges of putting Dumpty together again. I guess the bottom line is when the dominoes start falling all over due to a long-term illness there are lots of pieces to put back together. I am blessedly in good hands but the battle goes on. Links for info:
A Guide To Understanding The Struggle
Why Aren't You Better Yet? The Pressure To Heal