Posted on February 14, 2018
Tuesday, February 13th
It both breaks my heart and sets it on fire to give this update.
Emily's MRI results show two more brain tumors (one in the occipital lobe or vision center). The ultrasound showed a tumor in her kidney that has doubled in size since first being found in December. Her chest x-ray showed innumerable tumors throughout both lungs, and as well as fluid around her left lung (this is the cause of her cough). The Dr in Germany assured her if she were to choose chemotherapy and radiation at this point, the treatments which were done in Germany would absolutely serve as preparation. The treatments, namely the vaccine will have built up her body in a way which will allow her to withstand the challenge and even do it with less side effects. They meet with the brain surgeon on Tuesday at which point they will know more.
I recently listened to a sermon about healing. I want to share a little of what I gathered from the sermon and from my own experience. Keep in mind, this is coming from a human. And an upset human to boot. I might be getting something from God, but I am a broken human, with a broken heart. Please examine and cross check everything I say by getting with God on your own.
First off, why is there sickness to begin with? If God loves us why does He allow it? Well, God gave us authority over and responsibility of the earth and everything in it. By making poor decisions we have given that authority to the enemy. Am I saying Emily has cancer as a punishment for her sins? Absolutely not! I'm saying cancer exists because humans as a whole have allowed the enemy access to our lives, like giving him a key to our house. If God were to just take all sickness away right now He'd also have to remove our free will, because our free will is what got us here. He gave us our free will because He doesn't want robots, he wants souls. God's original design was us without imperfection or separation from Him. It's not His will for us to be sick or in pain, it's our choice (as a whole) to allow it in. No, it's not Emily's choice to have cancer, but we have all fallen short of perfection and the enemy has gained our "property" as a result. But it's not hopeless!! God made a way for US to take back what we gave away, a second chance (and third and fourth and millionth). Our fight is not against flesh and blood (or cancer), it's against a very real spiritual enemy who is standing on territory that rightfully belongs to us! By opening the door to Jesus and saying "Yes Lord! Please come in!" and giving him the space to move we can fight back, win back what we lost. Through PRAYER we can win these battles until we win the war. Praying is like flagging down the Lord and ushering Him into the situation. When Jesus healed people while on earth, he just said "you're healed" because he has the authority to do it. He could say to the sickness "get out" because He could also tell the sin to get lost. He gave us that same authority, so we say "In Jesus name" because we know that He's the one who gave us the power and He's the one who's standing there with us as we pray!
There is a battle going on in and over Emily right now, and right now it LOOKS like the bad guys are winning. But our faith is not based on what we see, it's based on WHO we know. Jesus has giving us authority over this thing. Emily's is God's! Let's stand together with Jesus and take back what belongs to our Kingdom!