I'm Brieal, and I have PTSD.
I've likely experienced symptoms of PTSD since I was a young child, as growing up I experienced childhood sexual abuse, however it took until a breakdown in May 2017 for me and my doctors to really understand how devastating my symptoms really are.
Between the beginning of May and the beginning of August 2017 I can count the number of times I left my house on one hand. Per my dad's count the longest I went without leaving the house in that time was 63 days. I was truly paralyzed, and was experiencing multiple panic attacks per day in addition to flashbacks and nightmares. While I've come a long way since then, I still experience several symptoms which seem to be lingering. Where my panic attacks have reduced to once every week or so, this is only because I've limited my access to specific triggers (ex. using the phone) in such a way that makes it difficult to live. Additionally I have nightmares or night terrors every night, and feel restless during the day because of it. I need to take multiple medications every day, and attend bi-weekly therapy in order to maintain my current level of symptoms.
This is no way to live.
I want to be independent. I want to be able to go to the store on my own and not have to worry about seeing triggers that cause me to dissociate or have flashbacks. I want to be able to take the bus and not have flashbacks every time I see someone who looks like my abuser.
This is where you come in:
I'd like to owner-train a service dog who is able to mitigate some of my symptoms, allowing me to live a more full and vibrant life! I've received a prescription for a service dog from my psychiatrist, and have been recommended a service dog by my psychologist. The ways in which it is possible for a service dog to help me are numerous, however the primary three are as follows: alerting me to my symptoms of dissociation prior to actually dissociating, waking me up when I'm having a night terror or severe flashback, and doing deep pressure therapy in the event of a panic attack.
There is no way for me to afford a service dog on my own, and in preparing an expense budget it is unlikely I'll be able to afford a service dog in the first years of my campaign. That said this is a goal I believe we can reach, because without this help I don't know what else I can do to mitigate my symptoms. A service dog is a necessary expense in my life, and if this is a goal that I need to work toward for an extended period of time then so be it.
Regardless of your donation level I appreciate that you've read this far. In addition to donations I always appreciate shares, thoughts, prayers, and good vibes! Thank you!