Posted on May 25, 2015
Posted on May 25, 2015The past months have been a long process of prayer and tears and research... and more prayer and more tears. We have felt that God may be turning us in a different direction concerning our adoption, a direction I would have never considered on my own. I am a believer that if we pray about something, and we get a good feeling, and we move forward, God will either assist us (things will naturally fall into place) if the decision is right for us, or He will put up road blocks if the decision is not what is best. Such has been the case with special needs international adoption every time we have tried to move forward. That breaks my heart more than anyone can know (hence, all the tears). I have spent the past several months regrouping and doing a lot of research and praying. I have had enlightening and uplifting conversations with several women who have adopted Mashallese children in America. One of these women is a dear friend of mine who has adopted 3 Marshallese children. I don't know for sure yet that this is the direction we are to go, but we are considering it. I have also, after a whole lot of fighting against it, been opened up to the idea of adopting a baby domestically. It has never at any point been my intention to adopt an infant. 1. Because I wanted to adopt a child who most people would not consider. I didn't want to be in the majority trying to battle it out for a healthy American baby. When my first son was a baby he had a large hemangioma on his lip and chin. It was so bad it would ulcerate and bleed. Every day I looked at this beautiful child and thought about the fact that if he were without a family he would be unlikely to be chosen because of his condition, even though it is only temporary (they outgrow it) and did not affect is health. I have always been sad over that. My son is wonderful. I think of all the children in the world who are "blemished" in some way who will not be adopted because so many people only want "healthy" babies. They are missing out on raising some of the best people on earth. But, God has a way of humbling us, doesn't He? I can no longer believe that one choice is nobler than another. I've come to the conclusion that we all need to trust God's wisdom and, with humility, follow Him where He leads us. 2. I didn't want a newborn. It was never my intention to adopt a child under 3. Children 3 and over are very unlikely to be adopted, few people will consider an older child. I have never imagined myself being chosen by a birth mother and going through the emotional process of getting to know her, or going to the hospital to bring our child home and being a part of that heart wrenching separation. Just the thought of it makes me cry! I love birth mothers. I admire them so much. I cannot imagine being so selfless as to be able to do that. But anyway, this is where we're at. I'm just waiting for things to fall into place. Maybe we'll find a birth mother, or maybe we will feel prompted to start the process with the Marshallese adoption attorney we've been referred to. Really what's holding us back at this point is that we've only earned about 1/24th of the cost of the adoption, and we will need to have half of that to begin, and the other half when we are matched, in the case of Marshallese adoption and matching can happen in a matter of weeks. So, there is our update. I always feel so emotionally vulnerable posting these, I don't know why that is! As always, the thing we need most are prayers. And I suppose at this point what we also need is to explore the option of finding a birth mother who might consider us, so, if you know of anyone you think we might be a good match with, we do so much appreciate your help. All of our supporters means so much to us, even those who support us with prayer. Thank you so much!
Posted on January 17, 2015
Posted on January 17, 2015Now that Kolby is about to start his practice we are talking with the agency about a possible income requirement waiver from China!
Posted on November 20, 2014
Posted on November 20, 2014The yard sale did even better than expected and we are finally making some progress in our fun raising! We still have tons of stuff to sell so we will be doing another sale after Thanksgiving. For those who aren't aware, adoption from China requires $30,000-$34,000 to accomplish- this fund raising deal is a HUGE task! We still have a little time because they want my husband to have had his business going a few months before we complete our home study, so we will be continuing our fund raising and our prayers and waiting (quite impatiently) for the day we are officially matched with our child.