Society for the Preservation of CJ Henderson

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C.J. Henderson has lost his battle with cancer. He was a wonderful father, husband, friend, and mentor. His writing will live on long after our memory has faded and ourselves gone to dust.  Please lift his family up in your prayers and if you are able please consider making a donation to help his family with the burden of his medical and funeral costs.

Thank you.


by Friends of CJ Henderson

Oh...and please share the call for submissions with others you think might have something to share so we can reach as many as possible.

Thank you,


by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi All,

It has been some time since I have posted an update.

While our friend is gone his family is still coping with the financial burden left behind by his medical and funeral costs.

With that in mind, our efforts to raise funds continue. One of the ways we are doing that--as well as to honor CJ's memory--is to compile a memorial book called The Big, Fat Wonderful World of CJ Henderson. It will be something other than your traditional biography, as CJ was something other than your traditional individual. Below you will find our call-for-submissions. Don't worry if you don't consider yourself a writer, just tell us what is in your hearts, share with us those cherished and quirky memories. We want to see the many lives he's touched and the varied ways he's touched them, from his childhood to his final days. Please, don't hold back. 

Call for submissions: The Big Fat Wonderful World of CJ Henderson

What we are looking for: 500 to 2000 word accounts of a moment in CJ Henderson’s life. This can be in the form of a story, poem, or essay. We want the width, breadth, and depth of this multi-leveled man. We want his youthful shenanigans and his more recent war stories. Tell us that memory that gets you in the gut. That makes you laugh every time you think of them, or that brings a tear to your eye in spite of yourself. Tell us about how he touched your life.

We don’t want dry facts or mournful reactions to his passing, there are enough of those already at hand. Let’s celebrate this bigger-than-life raconteur… Father… Friend… Mentor… All-around Great Guy.

This book is for him as much as it is for you so let’s make it great.

If you have photographs or other artwork we would love those as well, as long as you hold the rights to their use. Please, nothing that violates copyright or license. If you have done artwork for CJ based on his work, we would love to include examples in the book, along with an account of the project it was for or your experience working with him on it. If you run a con and had flyers or other con related items featuring CJ’s picture, those would be great too. If you would like to create new, original art in tribute to CJ, those are welcome as well.

Contributions should be submitted by email to greenfirephoenix @ aol . com in .doc or .rtf format, photographs and artwork should be 300dpi.jpgs. Please include your full name, email address, and mailing address.

PLEASE NOTE: We need something more than “every time I walked into the dealers room…” stories or “he was my mentor…”. Those are good, but there are a LOT of them out there. Give us something no one else can tell. Give us those private moments around a table…gaming…eating…chatting….drinking. Give us an unexpected moment on a panel or better yet, something that didn’t take place at a con at all. Never met CJ in person? You can tell us about how his stories touched you, or how you interacted by email, or how he did you a good turn or gave you your big break.

We won’t be able to use everything we receive, but we will do our best to use as much as we can.

DEADLINE: April 30, 2015 or until the collection is full. MULTIPLE SUBMISSIONS ARE ENCOURAGED.

*****If you sent something previously, please resend as I cannot locate some of the memorials I know I have received.*****

The book will be published through eSpec Books and the profits will go to CJ's family.



by Friends of CJ Henderson

Just a quick update on the tribute anthology campaign:

We are doing well and have raised double our goal so far with over a month to go. All profits from the campaign go directly to CJ's family to help pay down his medical and funeral costs.

If we hit $3000 all backers at the $5 or higher level receive a 20-minute video of CJ reading one of his stories.

Could you please help us spread the word about this project? The short URL is


by Friends of CJ Henderson



Just a quick update. CJ’s family is working their way through each day. All are well, if still coming to grips with life without CJ’s larger-than-life presence. Efforts continue to try and sell the book inventory in their basement at various conventions and sort through CJ’s office to make sure everything that needs attention is handled.


Efforts also continue to raise funds to help pay down the expenses from CJ’s year-long treatments and numerous hospital stays. One of those efforts is The Society for the Preservation of CJ Henderson, a tribute anthology featuring stories by CJ’s friends and fellow authors written either in one of CJ’s universes or incorporating CJ himself into the tale.

Contributors are Jean Rabe, James Chambers, John L. French, Patrick Thomas, Leona Wisoker, Jeff Young, Danielle Ackley-McPhail, David Boop, and CJ Henderson himself, with two previously unpublished stories. The authors are all donating their royalties toward the CJ’s medical bills.


Could you please help us spread the word about this project? The short URL is


Thank you,



by Friends of CJ Henderson

Call for submissions: The Big Fat Wonderful World of CJ Henderson

 What we are looking for: 500 to 2000 word accounts of a moment in CJ Henderson’s life. We want the width, breadth, and depth of this multi-leveled man. We want his youthful shenanigans and his more recent war stories. Tell us that memory that gets you in the gut. That makes you laugh every time you think of them, or that brings a tear to your eye in spite of yourself. Tell us about how he touched your life.

 We don’t want dry facts or mournful reactions to his passing, there are enough of those already at hand. Let’s celebrate this bigger-than-life raconteur…Father…Friend…Mentor…All-around Great Guy.

 This book is for him as much as it is for you so let’s make it great.

 If you have photographs or other images we would love those as well, as long as you hold the rights to their use. Please, nothing that violates copyright or license. If you have done artwork for CJ based on his work, we would love to include examples in the book, along with an account of the project it was for or your experience working with him on it. If you run a con and had flyers or other con related items featuring CJ’s picture, those would be great too.

 Accounts should be submitted by email to in .doc or .rtf format, photographs and images should be 300dpi.jpgs. Please include your full name, email address, and mailing address.

 PLEASE NOTE: We need something more than “every time I walked into the dealers room…” stories or “he was my mentor…”. Those are good, but there are a LOT of them out there. Give us something no one else can tell. Give us those private moments around a table…gaming…eating…chatting….drinking. Give us an unexpected moment on a panel or better yet, something that didn’t take place at a con at all. Never met CJ in person? You can tell us about how his stories touched you, or how you interacted by email, or how he did you a good turn or gave you your big break.

 We won’t be able to use everything we receive, but we will do our best to use as much as we can.

We would like to publish the book within the year, somewhere around the anniversary of his passing, so please send in your contributions as soon as possible.

 Thank you,


PS: I am posting pictures from CJ-Con to the picture gallery.

by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi All,

Courtesy of the great folks at Offworld Design we are able to offer memorial tee shirts for CJ Henderson. We won’t have them in time for CJ-Con itself, but they will ship by the end of the month.

The front of the shirt will show the design pictured on the Offworld site, the back of the shirt will read CJ-Con - August 16th, 2014.

These are limited time only. Orders must be received by August 18. Shirts will print and ship by August 31st.

Please order early and pass this link on to all those who may be interested as half the proceeds on these shirts will be given to the family to help off-set the medical and funeral expenses. This is a great way to participate in the memorial even if you aren’t able to attend.

And while you are on the site, please do check out the other wonderful, geeky shirts Offworld has to offer, there are plenty of great ones there!




by Friends of CJ Henderson
The friends and family of CJ Henderson cordially invite you to

CJ-Con – The Afterlife Launch
A One-Day Celebration of the Life of CJ Henderson

This event is to take place Saturday, August 16th 2014 from 2pm to 10pm at the Henderson home:

1944 W. 11th Street
Brooklyn, NY 11223

Guests will be encouraged to read aloud their favorite passages from CJ’s work, tell humorous or happy tales, peruse the art show inspired by the works of CJ Henderson and in general yuck it up about our favorite Great Old One, while meeting others of his many inner circles that you might have only heard mentioned previously.

This will be a potluck party so if you wish, please do bring your favorite dish or libation (of an adult nature or otherwise.) This is not mandatory, but is welcome.

Guests are encouraged to wear cool tee shirts or monkey-related apparel.

Please RSVP to indicating the names of those attending and what, if anything, you will be bringing so that we can plan accordingly.

Please call Danielle with any questions: 856-669-7395.

For those who would like to add to their collection of CJ’s books or get them as gifts, copies will be available in the Dealer’s Room.

Information on parking, transportation, and available accommodations to follow.

Best regards,
Danielle Ackley-McPhail - Con Chair
Beth Malone - Vice Chair
Erica Henderson and Iris Feng - Art Show
Grace Tin Lo - Con Suite Hostess

by Friends of CJ Henderson

My apologies for the delay in posting this, but here are the details for funeral services for CJ Henderson. The family would like anyone and everyone who is interested and able to attend:

 Services to be held Sunday, July 13, between 9am and 12pm.

After 12 the event will move to the crematorium.

 Wan Shou Funeral Service

1275 65th Street, Brooklyn NY 11219
at the corner of 13th Ave and 65th
Phone: 718-837-8900, 718-744-4691

 The crematorium is at:

500 25th street, Brooklyn NY 11232
It's about 20 minutes away from the funeral home.

 Flowers are welcome, as are donations in lieu of flowers to the medical expenses donation site.

 Please share this information with those who might not otherwise see it.

 A memorial will be help at a future date to celebrate CJ's rich and influential life. Details to follow.

Danielle Ackley-McPhail

by Friends of CJ Henderson
It is with the deepest, utmost regrets that I tell you all that CJ Henderson has lost his battle with cancer. After nearly a year of fiercest battle, CJ went out still fighting for each minute. Today he was being taken to the hospital for IV hydration when he passed on in transit.

I cannot tell you how much my heart hurts for his family and I have such sorrow to know that he has lost the good fight. He touched many lives and enriched many souls with a literary brilliance that will live on long after even our memory of him is gone. From the first time I met him he has ever been a mentor and a friend to both myself an all aspiring authors.

I do not yet have any details, but donations can be made at: to help the family offset the staggering medical costs of his battle and funeral expenses. Any donations will go directly into CJ's personal account to be collected by his family. Please share this with anyone who might have known and loved CJ.

I will keep those interested updated regarding any final arrangements as I receive details.

by Friends of CJ Henderson

For those who wish to send condolences the address is:

CJ Henderson
1944 W. 11th St.
Brooklyn, NY 11223



by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi Folks,

I'll have a more formal update for you soon, but in the meantime can I ask you to lift CJ and his family up in fervent prayer, whatever your faith. Things are not looking good and we need a miracle.

I'm posting some recent photos, check them out when you have a chance.

Please also spread the word about this fundraiser as CJ and his family need our support more now than ever.

Thank you,



by Friends of CJ Henderson
Folks, it's been a while and the news isn't good. Here is an update in CJ's own words. Please, PLEASE spread the word and the link for this site. Or if you like speculative fiction (I know...a real reach ;) consider donating to our Indiegogo campaign for a charity anthology for CJ Henderson, if you haven't already:

As always, the best thing you can do is offer up your prayers and well wishes with as much energy behind them as you can. And share the word...always share the word. We can't afford for this to fall off the radar. CJ's counting on us.

Now, for a word from the one we sponsor....


Well, this is not going to be fun, so let me get right to it. I'm not in the hospital. After I made the last posting, I got a call telling me not to pack for the hospital (I already had). Why, you ask. Because the Pet Scan had showed that, once again, the chemo treatments I'd received had been a spectacular failure. The main tumor had grown five times in size. Things would get no better under any approved chemo regiment, so I was told to come in so they could discuss my options.

Long story short ... the only thing left for me now is experimental drug trials. Apparently I'm in such bad shape that they were able to rush me into one immediately. So ... before leaving the hospital ... I gave urine once, blood twice (five vials each time) had three electro-cardiograms, and a (I think I'm saying this one right) bone marrow biopsy. Man ... that last one still hurts nine hrs later.

When I got home, I had some lunch (my breakfast of toast and broth at 8am just wasn't carrying through at 6pm ... imagine) and then went to bed. I asked my wife to wake me at 10 so I could take a shower and she could give me my evening shot, and so we could sit and stare at each other without anything to say as if we would never see each other again. Okay ... I didn't plan that last part, but hey ... old people can be spontaneous ... ah, can't we?

This is the hardest report I've had to make about this because ... well ... I'm running out of humor about this whole thing. Yeah, okay, I'm depressed ... and mainly I'm depressed because it's getting a lot harder to turn off the fear. Now, if I know myself as well as I think (hope?) I do, I'll probably start to come out of the funk some time tomorrow and get back to work. After this past, wonderful weekend at Zenkaikon, I know there are a lot of people who want Coney Island Knight to become a reality if nothing else, so it behooves me to get to work on it.

But, I won't be surprised it tomorrow is spent feeling really sorry for myself and eating junk and sleeping a lot. Probably the main thing that is depressing me is that my wife is really scared. I saw it in her eyes at the hospital as the doctors tried to make all of this seem positive. I heard it in her voice, watched it in her body language every minute since then. She's terrified, and as gratifying as that is for a part of me (everyone wants proof they're really loved, right?), it pisses me off that she feels so bad and that not only can't I do a thing about it, but that I'm the cause of it. She goddamn deserves better. If you've ever met her, you know she does. She married a tall man with wide shoulders, a good waistline and a fabulous head of hair (hey ... it was a long time ago ... most of you didn't know me then [I've got the wedding pics to prove it, though]). Age has me shrinking, my thyroid stole my waist, and cancer (or at least, the chemo treatments) have reduced my shoulders, shaved my head, and left me a physical wreck. I walk like a drunken three-legged dog. I feel like one, too.

You want to know how bad it is ... those of you who know me will understand this. Because I'm not going into the hospital for the 110 hr treatment, that means I could do the show I had to cancel for this weekend. I'm not going. Yes, there are other reasons that make Fri and Sun somewhat impossible, but usually I would think nothing of blasting in, setting up just for Sat, and shooting back home, singing all the way. I'm not going. I'm too tired. I'm to depressed. It wouldn't be fair to any venue to ask them to host my sorry, miserable ass this weekend.

It's going to take me a while, hopefully only a short while, to climb out of this pit. I'm really sorry to throw this out at everyone. Believe me, obviously I wish this wasn't my news right now. I wish I was handling it better. And, in a day or two, I'll be chipper again. I've got back episodes of SHIELD to watch. I have a steak in the fridge for tomorrow. There are little joys everywhere around (like my 5 leaf clover ... thanks again, kiddo) ... I will climb out of the despair. I always do.

Just give me a little more time this go around.

I love you all, and don't mean to upset anyone. But lying about things won't make anything better. I'm a sci fi kind of guy, and now I'm entering the world of cutting edge experimental medicine. At the very least, I'll probably get a story out of it.

Talk to you all later. And, as always, thank you, everyone, for the monumental amounts of good wishes and prayers and support you've all shown me. I will honestly do everything I can to beat this. Hey, I'm still a greedy bastard with books to sell. Once I unleash the Daffy Duck within and send him out to grab all your dollars ... hell, I'll be better in no time.

A man's gotta have hope ... he's gotta have dreams.


You're pal, CJ

by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi Everyone, 

We need your help. Silence in the Library is running a crowd-funding campaign for a charity anthology for CJ, unfortunately because it is a charity project it cannot run through Kickstarter. 

We are running it through Indiegogo, but that platform just doesn't have the reach or power that Kickstarter does and our campaign is not going as well as we want to do for CJ.

See...other than the costs of printing and mailing the books, absolutely all moneys received go to CJ. We want that to be a LOT. All of the authors, artists, and administrative and production staff are donating their time and talents and believe me, the list is impressive. 

Might you consider supporting project? For even just $10 you get tons of great stories by 

Initial Authors:

Kevin J. Anderson and Rebecca Moesta, Maggie Allen, Jack Dann, Ed Greenwood, Joe Haldeman, Nancy and Belle Holder, Tanya Huff, Gail Z. Martin, Danielle Ackley-McPhail, Jean Rabe, Mike Resnik, Hildy Silverman, Janine Spendlove, Michael A. Stackpole, Anton Strout, Kelly Swails, Robert E. Vardeman, Elizabeth A. Vaughan, Bryan Young, Jean Marie Ward, Gene Wolfe, and Timothy Zahn. And, of course, CJ Henderson.

Stretch Goal Authors:

Aaron Rosenberg, Alan M. Clark, Allan Gilbreath, Alma Alexander, Tera Fulbright, Cynthia Ward, Davey Beauchamp, Dylan Birtolo, James Chambers, Jeff Young, Jennifer Brozek, John Hartness, Maxwell Alexander Drake, John L. French, Jonathan Maberry, Keith R.A. DeCandido, KT Pinto, Michael Ventrella, Misty Massey, Patrick Thomas, Pete Prellwitz, Sheryl Nantus, Stuart Jaffe, David B. Coe, Vicki Steger, and Mike McPhail.

And there are more on the way!

So many people are getting behind this but we need your help to make it happen and get CJ as much help as we can. Even if you can't pledge financial support to the campaign, even if you could just spread the word and boost the signal, that alone is a major help.

The URL is:

by Friends of CJ Henderson

An update from the Man himself:

Hello, everyone ... CJ here ... and the news, well it's more bad than good. I will try to make this as short a document as possible. First off, as many have heard, the chemotherapy did not get rid of the cancer. The stuff they gave me the first time around was the this-usually-works-for-most-people batch. Well, you know me, I'm special. So ... I have to go back in.
Anyone who needs to reach me for anything--anything--you have to do it by Sunday night. On Monday, at any time the hospital will call and say "come in now." So, I could theoretically be gone come 6am. Thing is, I'm not going in like last time for a handful of hours. This treatment is 4, 24 hr sessions in a row. You get a break in between to catch your breath, and hopefully a shower, and then you're hooked up again for another straight 24 hrs of poison pumping. So, not only will I be totally out of contact with the world until some time on Friday, there is no guarantee exactly when I'll be leaving the hospital, nor as to how coherent I'll be when I do so. It's possible I won't have any straight answers to give to anyone until next Monday.
So please, if you send an email or leave a phone message, I will get back to you, but I have no idea exactly when that will be.
They will give me this treatment ... and then in two weeks they'll do it again. After that they'll do another study to see if it's working. If it is, I can expect around six months of the same. What this will do to my convention schedule, I have no idea. It all depends on exactly how liquefied this will leave my fragile little mind. Fingers crossed.
And, I gotta hope this works, because if it does not, they're all out of quick-and-easy remedies. After that, I become part of the great world of cancer research. I will admit ... from the grim, no bullshit way my doctor was talking at this point in our chat, I can tell I don't want to get to that point. He's Canadian. He don't blow no smoke up anything. I like him for that. But, yeah ... okay ... I'll admit to being a trifle nervous. Honestly, if I could be unconscious for all of next week while they're playing pinball with my innards, I'd accept it like a big dog. But, no such luck (they tell me).
So ... that's it. That's all there is to tell. If I owe you a short story or book, it'll get done eventually. If I'm supposed to be at your show, I'll do my best (I might be stuck in a cancer ward). And if you're just one of the people I cherish like gold above the muck and dross that makes up most of the world, I'm doing my level best to survive. Honest. But that's all I gots right now. Another report come next Saturday or Sunday, whenever I'm cognizant once more.
Fingers crossed, kids.



There was not an open slot in the chemotherapy schedule for CJ yesterday. He is on a waiitng list. If the waiting goes on too long the schedule will be such that he does not get out of the hospital until Sunday, which means every time he goes in for this it will be the same and his convention schedule...his primary means of income, will be further disrupted.

Please pray that CJ gets in quickly and is able to do what he needs to do. Also please spread the word as the bills are piling up.

Thank you,


by Friends of CJ Henderson

A brief update on CJ. he's keeping his spirits up, but due to where the cancer is (pressing against the spine) he must sleep sitting up and the cancer is currently inoperable. This is the reason he will be going in for intensive chemotherapy in the near future, to try and shrink that node to a point where they can do something about it.

I don't have information on when he is going in yet, but I'll let you all know when I do.

In the meantime, the speculative community is rallying around our pal. We have several things we are doing to combat his financial woes while he goes head-to-head on the medical.

One, of course, is this website so if you could please spread the word far and wide so that we can lighten some of his  immediate worry, that would be great.

Next, in partnership with Silence in the Library Press and an insanely long list of authors we will be holding a kickstarter for a benefit anthology with all profits going directly to CJ. The kickstarter begins March 18th, more details to follow.

Finally, we are asking everyone to sacrifice a small piece of their pride for this good cause. In homage to one of CJ's frequent sales pitches "I'll dance like a monkey for a nickel" we would like as many people as possible to record a 30 second clip of them or someone they know dancing like a monkey. This can be as simple or complex as you like. In the description put "I'll Dance Like a Monkey for a Nickel - in honor of CJ Henderson, who is battling Lymphoma, #CJHendersonKickstarter" and we ask that you send us a link to the video Danielle Ackley-McPhail at greenfirephoenix @ aol . com or Gail Z. Martin @ gail @ chroniclesofthenecromancer . com. Thank you!

You can use any means you have for the recording and posting of the video, but if you don't know how to start, I am told Vine is an easy to use app. Here are links to that:

We'll have more updates soon when we are done scheming!

Thank you,


by Friends of CJ Henderson
I can't tell you how much I hate to post this update.

A couple of months ago CJ finished his course of chemotherapy treatments. As is standard he was retested this month to assess the effectiveness of the treatment.

The results are in and they did not get everything. They have discovered a cancerous lymph node that is pressing against CJ's spine.

Currently he is scheduled to go in for four straight days of non-stop chemotherapy to knock the cancer down and then will begin yet another round of scheduled chemotherapy treatments.

CJ really needs all the prayers and support he can get right now. Please continue to lift him up and please, PLEASE share the link to this website because he is going to need the assist even more now with three or more hospital stays and who knows how many chemo treatments pending, not to mention how many more shows he will now have to miss once the poisons start to work on his body.

Thank you,


by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi all,

As you may see, we've updated the photograph for this donation site with a before-and-after montage of our pal CJ. It's heartwrenching, but as he himself would say, at least he's still here and recovery will come.

On the health-front, CJ's doing okay, considering, but goes in for another chemo treatment tomorrow. After this he has one left...the day before Christmas. Hohoho. :(

In the meantime, an art gallery in Montclair, NJ is doing a special feature this Friday, December 6th, that will feature the artwork of Ben Foggletto, who has done the art for many of CJ's covers. CJ will be there with his books and would love to see whatever fans can make the event.

Times have not yet been confirmed, but the address of the gallery is:

The Art Garage
211 Glenridge Avenue
Montclair, NJ 

Please do head down to support two really great guys. (In the Photo section of the donation site you can see the line rendition for Ben's artwork of our charity anthology.)

by Friends of CJ Henderson
Hello, all. 

Sorry for the long radio-silence. Fall is one of our busy seasons and so between processing books to go to print and attending conventions, we've been a bit overloaded. 

On the SPC side, we have begun work on the charity anthology for CJ, but don't look for anything before next year...sadly, these things take time. However, in the meantime, I am 95% complete processing CJ's newest collection, Everything's Better With Monkeys (Dark Quest Books) for publication. With luck that will be out in print and ebook by the end of the year and making CJ money.

Now, with Thanksgiving fast approaching and us having so much to be thankful for, here is an update direct from our boy, CJ, himself:

Hello everyone---
First off, let me say thank you once more to everyone out there that has shown their concern for me and my situation. To the well-wishers sending their prayers and love and crossed-fingers, to those contributing their dollars to the Preserve CJH fund, all I can say is God bless you all. I appreciate every bit of it. Obviously money pays bills, and in these tight times it says volumes that folks have anything spare to send. But, I am touched beyond measure by all of you that have continued to send simple encouragement. We also live in times where the internet and other pressures have driven us to become more and more a self-centered society.
Whenever anyone takes the time to send me a note of "get well," "don't give up," "hang in there," et cetera, every one of them is a smile-bring shot in the arm that I can not express how much I appreciate. There are days I wake up and the chemo poisons are doing a number on me like nobody's business. Yet, just a sincere message from one person reminding me that people care can do wonders for my spirit. So, trust me when I say, thank you everyone for everything you have done. I probably would have survived this far on just medicine, but it would have been infinitely harder. Thank you all.
And now, some news on how I'm doing.
First off, for anyone who hasn't heard, the cancer seems to be pretty much under control. It looks like I'll live and be back harassing the world soon enough. The chemo, as I said above, is miserable. Dry mouth to the point of choking, insomnia, constipation, sweats, numb mind, constant bladder pressure, more. Some days are better than others. Some are a monstrous grind of simply trying to keep moving forward. I've had four of the six treatments, and none of them have been easy. I'll get the last one just days before my birthday (24th chemo, 25th Christmas, 26th my birthday), which means Christmas, my birthday and New Years will be a drooling mess. Well, at least I'll have Chinese New Years.
I lost 40 pounds in the hospital during the first stay, gained 10 back when I went home and could finally eat again, but have lost that 10 once more, and about 5 more. My appetite, admittedly a thing out of control before, has been destroyed. While I seem to have conquered some of my mental problems, like wanting a large meal every night just before bed, I rarely find myself enjoying a meal these days. Many of my favorite things taste like rancid cardboard. Doctors and my wife are yelling at me to eat more, but ... well ... I just can't. I know the sound of the weight loss sounds good, but I understand their concerns. The gut remains in these situations, but my arms and legs and shoulders have all shrunk, leaving me looking like some Tim Burton animation character. Throw in my hair loss, and the look is grotesque. But still, I'm just not hungry, and 9 meals out of 10, I'm forcing stuff down.
The scary news, however, centers on what started everything ... the blood clots. Those remain. I get a shot of blood thinners every morning and every night, but so far the two large clots rooted in my groin, poised to shoot upward into my lungs, or the one lodged in my neck and inch from the brain, they don't seem to be shrinking. Granted, the blood thinners are scheduled to continue for months, but the medical types aren't as happy when I ask about the clots as they are the cancer. But hey, at least if one of them breaks loose and gets me, I'll go out like a light. That's something.
And, honest, I'm not trying to be morbid, but when you get a possible death sentence pronounced on you, and you know it could be agonizing pain for months on end, or a simple, painless flip of the switch ... hey, if ya gotta go, might as well go quick and easy.
I know how that sounds, but trust me, I'm not thrilled about the idea. I'm just coward enough to admit that if it must be, I'll take quick and easy. If I can stick around, I'll take that, too.
And, it might be worth it. Yes, the writing is tough these days. To give you an idea how hard it is for me to focus, I started writing this about an hour and a half ago. That's way too long. On the other hand, two months ago it would have taken a day and a half, so I'm getting better.
The "worth it" part is that folks still want my work. Next year is going to see another flood of titles from me. A new series (yes, another one), and several more all-me collections, another slew of anthologies and comics, at least one novel besides the new series, possibly two ... I am getting work done, but it's a lot tougher. I can get about 1,000 words done in a day, if it's a day I can write at all. So, on the one hand writing is harder than ever, by far, but on the other, I'm getting it done, turning stuff in, and it's still getting approved. So again ... step by step ...
Also, I know I had to cancel a lot of appearances, first simply because of the pain, then the hospitalization, then the recovery, and finally, after being able to make one small personal appearance, I took a fall which put me back in the hospital and I missed another slew of shows. I am so sorry for letting anyone down that expected to see me here or there. I really tried to get back on my feet. And well, I did, a little. The last two weekends I actually made it to two conventions ... Carnage, in VT, and Geek Kink in NJ. The first I ended up in a wheelchair for the weekend, but by the second I was only on a cane. I had to cancel the upcoming Boston Super-Mega Show, which hurt because if nothing else, it's in Boston which means when I do that show I get to spend the weekend with my daughter. But, common sense let me know it would be too much.
However, the splendid time I had in VT and NJ both were a tonic for the soul. The readings I did and the panels, everyone had a good time, and their cheers and laughter and applauds were such a boost to my soul ... hey, let's face it, I'm an attention-starved diva, and I needed every second of it. I got to premier some new books (can't believe how "Clockwork Chaos" flew off the table. Sure glad I did a story for that one), but it was the signing autographs and the several endless gab sessions with fans that did me such a world of good. Yeah, in VT in the wheelchair, I was in screaming pain in my hip, but man of man, it was worth it.
Which kind of brings me back to how I opened all this. These past two weekends, connecting with my fans, being reminded that people actually like my work ... that they like me ... it was the best medicine I've had these past months. Yeah, sure, science will argue that their goo is what's keeping me alive, and they're probably right ... but ... when you're lying awake in the dark, staring at the ceiling, wondering if the pain and the tears and the sometimes downright embarrassing disabilities are worth it, there's nothing like remembering the face of a fan who has spotted me and yelled out "CJ!"
That joy ... it's flavor is the sweetest thing in the world. So again, please believe me, I thank everyone out there that has shown me even the slightest concern. Every single email, every card and contribution, every book bought, every tiny well-wish, every phone call and visit ... you can not how much they have helped. I have been made humble by the attention, and my soul has been lightened.
God bless you all. 



Thanks for keeping up to date here, and if you have a chance, please share word of this site with others who love and care about CJ as much as we do.



by Friends of CJ Henderson
Hi Folks,

Sorry it has been so long since there has been an update. Convention season has started up again and it is amazing how many directions I'm being pulled. Anyway, before I head off to Capclave I wanted to give you a special update direct from the man himself.

From CJ Henderson:

Hi, everyone---
Finally having a good day, and since I've been encouraged to let people know how I'm doing, that's what I'm going to attempt here now. I haven't been writing very much at all ... the brain gets fuzzy, tired, and the words don't flow with their normal ease. But, this is more like conversation, so ... here goes.
Just to let you know, I'm supposed to survive. I'm got a really bush-league cancer. Now, it's still cancer, and so I've got a lot of really crappy stuff to go through, but anyone who wants to see me again will probably get their chance.
As for the crappy stuff ... the chemo just knocks you out. I go in for a six hour IV injection once every three weeks. This, along with the follow-up drugs the next day, just take everything out of you. Weak, tired, dizzy ... and, you never know when suddenly a pain is just going to come and bite your arm or leg or side or ... well, you get the idea. These pains will just show up, knock me down into the nearest chair, scare the hell out of whoever's taking care of me at the time, and then just fade away over the next few hours.
Fun ... right?

Well, the real fun is the ... ah ... posterior problems. Chemo therapy promotes constipation. Really bad constipation. But, if you take too much anti-constipation medication ... well ... you end up with a different problem. I'm not trying to be coy here. We're really into an area where some folks have simply found it to be too much information. Let's just say that I have had some incredibly painful days at both ends of the spectrum. And, believe it or not, some of it was so bad I ended up in the ER. Again, I don't want to gross anyone out. Feel free to ask about it when you see me in person, or on the phone or in an email. But, I'll stop talking about that now.
I've been asked if there is anything people can do for me. Honestly ... I wouldn't know what to ask for. My wife and my daughter have been taking such wonderful care of me that I'm doing fine on all the home care issue stuff. If anyone wants to call and check in ... my number is ... 718-232-6682. It's listed in the phone book, so ... what the heck, right? My email is and I answer my mail whenever I'm feeling up to it. Now, if you call ... be prepared to find that I'm sleeping or at a doctor's appointment or something. My guardians will let you know as best they can when I'll be awake and the such, but they're pretty fierce about making sure I get my rest.
Now, if anyone wants to see me in person ... this weekend on Sunday the 13th I'll be at: the NYC COLLECTIBLE PAPERBACK & PULP FICTION EXPO in Manhattan, NY. For details, just click on: http://www.gryphonbooks. It's more of a personal appearance kind of thing. The publisher who runs this show was the man who published my first book, and this is the 25th anniversary of the show. I had agreed to be a guest a year ago, and I just can't let this great guy down. Now, it won't be one of my normal con appearances, don't have the strength for that. But, I will have the latest books, and have guaranteed that I'll be there from no later than 11am until 2pm. So, if anyone is going to be around Manhattan and wants to say "hi," it's a real cheap admission price, and for anyone who likes books, there's a hell of a lot more to do there than just to say "hi" to me.
I'm also planning on being at Chiller in NJ later in the month. When they heard what happened to me, the promoters paid for my table to encourage me to still come. So, if you were going to Chiller anyway, take a look around for me. I should be there.
And, I'm starting to get really tired, so I'm going to start wrapping this up. But, before I fall back into the Land of Nod, I just want to reach out to everyone that has sent cards and emails, who have donated to the website, and especially to those who have been including me in their prayers ... thank you. God bless you. As I know I don't have to tell anyone, when they tell you that you have cancer, it's pretty scary. Even low-grade cancer like I have. Hell, I went into the hospital for life-threatening blood clots (which they're also still working on), and then find out that's not the worst of my problems ... yikes.
What I'm trying to say is, I was at the lowest a person can be. Death is knocking, are you home? No matter how good a face you try and put on things for yourself and those around you, it's scary. It's frightening. Without my wife and her boundless love, I know I would have never made it. I would have panicked myself into a grave. But, she got me through the horrible, just awful two weeks in the hospital, and nursed me until I got home ... and then ... then when I saw what so many wonderful people were doing for me ... out of friendship and love and a depth of caring that is usually reserved for saints and beloved grandpas ... and I guess, dancing monkeys, too ... well ... I still don't know what to say. I have to admit, I'm tearing up now because I'm still so overwhelmed.
I mean, I knew people thought I was funny, and fun ... and they liked my work ... but all of this ... all I can say is, I really understand what Sally Fields meant at the Oscars when she shouted, "You like me, you really like me."

Thank you, everyone. For every smile and well wish and dollar bill and scrap of concern and thumbs up and funny cards and ... and well ... for your love and friendship and for making me feel like every day is Christmas. A time when all the world rallies to reject the darkness and find kindness and joy for everyone. Even me.
Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart.
And now ... I gotta go lie down.
yer pal;

by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi, Everyone.

Glad to report that we have been able to send another payment to CJ for $1366. In addition to that we were able to determine that CJ has a paypal account so all future donations will go directly into his account as they are made, rather than needing to be sent to him.

Spoke to CJ a little bit yesterday and again today. Still not sounding quite himself, but he is feeling a bit better as more time passes since his last treatment.

He did learn one very important thing...ALWAYS wear the compression socks. Not doing so is asking for pain. He had a little scare when he forgot the other day and experienced some pains he was not expecting. Fortunately, the quickly determined the cause.

Anyway, he's been doing his best to keep active as the doctor's instructed him to. He's been having a few visits from friends and family, watched a few movies, and takes care of simple household chores to get himself moving.

Best of all, CJ was actually up to doing some writing, which tells me our guy is definitely fighting to get on the mend.

Please continue to send him your well-wishes and prayers.



by Friends of CJ Henderson
It has been a few days and things are slowing, sadly, so if you could please spread the word to those who might not have heard. CJ has a long way to go and we've barely scratched the surface of his medical expenses.

I haven't spoken to CJ in a few days, but fellow Society member, James Chambers stopped in to see our pal this week.

Jim says: 

CJ looked very drained but good last night. He was in a great mood and was eating. Conversation was as lively as usual despite his fatigue. Tin's taking good care of him. 

In the meantime, we at the Society are plotting ways to reach our goal. I hope to have news for you shortly.



by Friends of CJ Henderson

Happy Monday, everyone,

Well, this is becoming a habit that I can enjoy having....we have just scheduled the third payment to CJ of $1050. Keep up the great work spreading the word. Thank you all for stepping up to the plate.

Now, here is our status update:

Just spoke to CJ. He had another treatment which leaves his white blood cell count low and makes him a bit weak, but this is a normal reaction. He’s looking forward to trying to eat a bologna sandwich tonight and some corn on the cob. That’s the plan anyway. He hasn’t been able to eat too much so it is a good sign that he is interested.

He shared the details of his treatment today. He will have five more rounds of chemotherapy after today. The next one is in roughly two weeks. After the chemo he has seventeen weeks of another type of treatment, which he couldn’t recall.

Once that completes he will have a follow up to assess how effective the treatment was.

I don’t have the specifics, but I can tell you this will be very, very expensive. CJ does have some insurance, but it will change once Obama Care goes into effect and he will have to pay ten percent of whatever expenses are accrued. Expenses are already high for the treatment he’s received and he has a long way to go. Please continue to spread the word so that CJ has one less things to worry about.

To put things into perspective, the $3000 we have already raised does not even cover the cost of one of CJ’s shots. I’m under no illusion that we will continue at the pace we currently are so any recommendations of potential fundraising efforts we can institute would be gratefully accepted. We're already working on a few other things ourselves, but we can use all the ideas we can get.



by Friends of CJ Henderson

For those of you who do the convention circuit, if you would like to spread the word about our pal CJ and the efforts to help him out, I have uploaded a flyer in the Photo gallery that you can print and distribute. If you can't download the file in a high enough resolution email me at and I can send you the original file.



by Friends of CJ Henderson

Hi All,

I know...two updates in one day?! But I had to. I actually spoke to CJ on the phone today so I really wanted to share. First off, he sounded great. A little tired and having some trouble focusing, but definitely better than two days ago.

There was a slight set back after an encounter with some lemon in his tea that caused a negative reaction. Apparently the treatments have given him a problem with acid and he did not anticipate the lemon would be an issue, but it was. He's good now and knows not to do that again.

Sadly, energy is still an issue and CJ will not be making the Collingswood Book Festival this year. The lost shows are going to be a blow, but we here at the Society are planning some additional ways to mitigate those losses. We'll keep you updated.

CJ thanks you all very much for your love and support. It is very much appreciated. He doesn't have the energy now, but he will be issuing a personal thank you sometime in the future. He has seen your well-wishes that have been posted here on the site and I will make sure he has a copy of them as well.

He has asked me to provide his mailing address here in case any of you wish to send him a personal and private word of encouragement by mail:

CJ Henderson
1944 W. 11th St.
Brooklyn, NY 11223

Feel free to pass this information around.

And finally, amazingly enough we have already reached a quarter of the way to our initial goal! We thank you for your part in making that happen so swiftly. As always, please continue to keep CJ and his family in your prayers.



by Friends of CJ Henderson

Good morning,

No update from CJ's family right now, given the early hour, but I am very happy to announce that the second payment of $950 has been scheduled for release.

Keep the prayers and messages coming!



by Friends of CJ Henderson


You astound me. Not even 24 hours in and we have already accumulated more than ten percent of our initial goal. Thanks are not enough for the love you are showing our mutual friend.

I am pleased to announce that I have already scheduled the first payment to be sent to CJ, as I will continue to do each time we hit a $1000 (Please note, for full disclosure, the Paypal fee is deducted from the amount sent so if you have the option to send payment in such a way that does not trigger a fee, please do so. I believe the send cash to friends and family option will accomplish this.) The first payment of $950 will reach CJ by the end of this week.

The family has been alerted to expect the check's arrival. During my call to CJ's wife, Tin, I received the following update. "CJ is doing much better than he was yesterday and was even able to eat some soup." This is significant as it is the first time in several days that CJ has been able to eat.

Unfortunately, Tin also mentioned that CJ fielded 14 calls today, which has left him wiped out. Please, PLEASE restrain yourself and do not call, if you are in a position to do so. give him a few days to recover.

Please stay tuned for some other fundraising efforts that are in the works.

Finally, I pass on to you the family's thanks for your generosity and support.



by Friends of CJ Henderson
Just before Labor Day, CJ was admitted to the hospital for blood clots in his legs. While he was there an examination revealed suspicious nodule that were later revealed to be lymphoma. CJ has just returned home today after treatments for his condition and a round of chemotherapy.

He is weak, but taking each day as it comes.



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